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no hates, it’s gonna be all about me:))

Undoubtedly, I know I’ve hurt a lot by now from all the posts I’ve written. I think I’ve reached their limits:) But no regrets. So this time there will be no hates. no judgmental accusations. But a perspective of the existing ‘me’ in this world.

Being nocturnal and an introvert. That’s me.

Not everybody would enjoy being a nocturnal one. It’s like only few could survive until 4am. Simply because, we have different timezones than normal people have. Sleep at 4am then wake up at 2pm. Even though I’ll try a hundred times to sleep earlier like 12midnight, it’s really really hard to adjust.

Somehow, being one is important to me. As a student. Especially courses that are usually attacked by monsters, plates. Tough ones sometimes don’t sleep at all. I’ve done that, only this year. That was last Jan 20-21 2012. The Notre dame de Paris Relief midterm project. The same day when I was tasked to report. Fuck the reality. All of us didn’t slept last night, and I’ll be having a hard time to wake them up, coz for sure they all just sleep. How sad.

And I’m lost. Back to nocturnality. Give me a day and for sure i can’t blog anything. But stay with me at night, and the possibility of telling my whole life would be 100%. It’s like daytime aren’t for me, draining my energy. Unlike night time, my brains can calculate math problems, can imagine the wildest things about life, & can undeniably blog in English.

Fuck the last words. Coz I know I’ve never been good in english, ever in my life. I can still remember I got 78 there, and i don’t know how can I still continue this piece of shit. Grammars have never been my priority neither in Filipino. I just blog whatever running through me. It’s up for you to understand. I don’t give a fuck.

For me, spending the night are much more slower than daytime. I like the thought of ‘them’ sleeping and I still awake, like the darkness of the sky makes me feel peaceful, the earthly noise of the nature keeps me writing these things, the cold breeze lending me soothing meditation, and lastly the roosters who never fail to remind me about the past hours I’ve productively spent. I love how it comes and goes by. The every night I’m spending whether in front of a laptop or thinking deeply wide awake lying at my bed. All by myself.

That is why I’m also an introvert. As I see myself from what I do. The fact that i enjoy being myself alone. That I’d rather choose individual projects than by group. Feels like I can wholly trust myself without being dependent from others. I knew it since I was a kid. Even if it’s given as by group, i always end up doing all the work by myself. It’s indeed my nature. Sometimes people would call me an egoist. Being in college, I can see it all again. I noticed myself doing plates behind the group and I don’t usually join overnight homework plates which most of my classmates are doing it habitually. I’d rather stay home do it with myself, no talks, no disturbances.

Even watching me draw, I Hate It. I hate someone staring at me while I’m working plates. They aren’t helping me at all. I’m saying these things to all you, that watching me draw/paint/work will never be a good option. Just give me a cup of coffee & i’ll be fine.

Yes. I’ve never been a certified coffeeaholic before. Before hellweeks came into life. But because coffee is the only thing that keeps me awake when my eyes were once shutting down…i’ve gone addicted to it. Since then, every night I invent different mix of coffee, milk, chocolate, creamier or whatever. Well, i don’t care whatever they call it, latte, cappuccino, or espresso. They’re all lovely for me. Feels like it has a magic power that can make me awake especially in ‘no-sleep days’.

And seriously, I’m going nuts by now. Longest blog so far. And I have MORE things to blog about other than this. So if you’re afraid your dashboard will gone bad…then click unfollow. It’s always right there. It’ll never run. Don’t risk. Don’t worry I don’t check who are my followers.

I can post what I want, what I feel. After all, this is still my blog. 

Pa-add sa skype. aubreyfresnido

grazie!:)

TAMA SI MIRIAM, KAPAL NG MUKA NIO MAGMALINIS!!! Naawa ako ke CJ Renato Corona:(( Haaaaaaaaaay. Ansasama nila!

Naiinis ako sa sarili ko. Gustong gusto kong i-save yung mamamatay na kuting, kaso di ko kaya. Para kong tanga alalang-alala sa kanya. Syempre mahal na mahal ko mga hayop sa mundo lalo na kuting palang siya. Syet!

Parang yung eksenang mamamatay na si Rue. Oshet gusto ko nalang siyang kantahan…naiyak talaga ko dito…

Deep in the meadow, under the willow
A bed of grass, a soft green pillow
Lay down your head, and close your sleepy eyes
And when again they open, the sun will rise.

Here it’s safe, here it’s warm
Here the daisies guard you from every harm
Here your dreams are sweet and tomorrow brings them true
Here is the place where I love you.

Deep in the meadow, hidden far away
A cloak of leaves, A moonbeam ray
Forget your woes and let your troubles lay
And when again it’s morning, they’ll wash away.

Here it’s safe, here it’s warm
Here the daisies guard you from every harm
Here your dreams are sweet and tomorrow brings them true
Here is the place where I love you.

Haaybuhay. </3

(Source: yourpinkgoddess)

Gusto ko ng ideactivate lahat ng account ko…maliban sa tumblr. Kaso imposible ata yun. #sadperson

Bago basahin, please lang…be open minded.

Alam naman nating lahat na napaka-mabisang pagpapaPANSIN ang pag-popost ng picture mong nakangiti… nakangiti at kumakaway mong CLEAVAGE sa facebook. YO Hello there:)

Hindi ko na talaga maintindihan kung bakit kailangang pang humantong sa ganitong paraan ng pagpapapansin ang ginagawa ng mga sangkabaklaan ngayon. Haha kababaihan nga pala.

INENG Kung gusto mong respetuhin ka, ba’t nagpapamanyak ka?

Pero wag kang mawalan ng pag-asa, marami pang oras para sa pagbabago ngunit subalit dapatwat wala na kong magagawa kung matigas talaga ulo mo, kung yun talaga trip mo. Basta sinasabi ko lang, na dapat HANDA ka sa mga sasabihin ng mga manyak sa mundo. pati narin iisipin sayo ng mga nasa paligid mo. 

MAGMUMUKA KA LANG TANGA KUNG SASABIHIN MONG, “wag niyo naman sana akong bastusin, please”

Sa tingin mo ba kagalang-galang yang ginawa mo? Pestengyawa naman o.

Kung ang idadahilan mo sakin ngayon ay, “pake mo ba?”, “wala ka lang nun e” okaya #YOLO. Aba ineng isaalang-alang mo nlng ang mga magulang mo, na hindi ka nila pinalaki para bastusin mo ang sarili mo.

Mapapatawad ko pa yung mga taong hindi naman nila inintensyon gawin yang karumaldumal na gawaing yan e, pero yung mga taong HALATANG HALATA namang sinadya na maisali ang mapang-akit at maalindog na kung ano man nila… tsk.

Masakit mang malaman ang katotohanan, pero gusto ko lang sana na ipaintindi na hindi nakakaakit, hindi nakakatuwa, at hindi maganda para sayo ang ganyang gawain. Peace tayo ha! :)

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p.s. hindi po kayo si sam pinto 

(Source: yourpinkgoddess)

*spoileralert* (AS IF? ako nalang yata di nakakapanuod nito. HAHA)

Haay. Tatlong araw ko ng binabasa ang Hunger Games pdf, di parin ako tapos. Grabe sobrang bagal ko 300+ pages lang yun, nangangalahati palang ako.

Kase masyado akong natutuwa sa pagkakasulat ng librong yun. Astig. Nakakaaliw. Magandang maganda! Ang mga rason kung bakit ambagal bagal ko…

Una.;Dahil sobrang lawak ng imagination ko… Hahaha.

Yung tipong bawat scene iniimagine ko mga nangyayari minsan ginagawa ko rin. As in, nag-*tap* lang sa table si Haymitch, ginaya ko rin! HAHA, tapos yung accent ng mga taga-Capitol sinubukan kong gayahin base sa description HAHA ULIT. Isa pa, tuwing mag-iintroduce ng bagong character, gumagawa ko ng sarili kong cast. Napanuod ko na trailer, pero dating dati pa, nung kapanahunan pa tlga ng HG. Buti nalang di ko napansin mga lalaki dun. Kase ngaun, habang binabasa ko, ang sarap iimagine kung gano kapogi si Gale, at kung gano kalaki abs ni Peeta Mellark. Omg baka ma-disappoint lang ako sa movie. Tsaka halata namang 98% mas maganda yung nasa libro.

Haha. Takte kase yung author, sobrang detalyado ng mga pinaglalagay nia dun. Yung tipong bawat pagkain na babanggitin, me kelangang ikwento si Katniss..kung kelan ba niya huling natikman yun, at madalas pa sa minsan pers taym daw siang nakakaen nun. Haha pero okay lang kase nakaka-relate ako sa kahirapang pinagdadaanan ng pamilyang Everdeen. Hindi naman yung eksenang kelangan pang pumunta ng gubat sa sobrang walang makaen, yung estado lang nila sa Panem ang feel ko. 

Medyo naguguluhan lang ako sa panahon nila kase pinag-halong makaluma at futuristic yung setting. Ang gulo! Sobrang hirap ng District 12, to the point na laging nawawalan ng kuryente, kumakain ng squirrel at rabbit ang mga tao, yung tipong sobrang unang panahon, tas itong si bakla nung nakarating ng Capitol bonggang bongga ang mga inispluk! Dipindot nlang daw lahat. Dipindot ang paglabas pagkain, me elevator at kung anu anong kaekekan samantalang napaka-oa ng paghihirap ng mga tao sa District 12.

Pangalawa. Nagtitipid na ko sa kuryente…kaya bihira ko lang siyang mabasa. Mga isang oras lang time ko para sa HG.

Hmm, dun palang ako sa mismong magsstart yung games. Pero ito lang ang inaabangan ko, kung sino ang makakatuluyan ni Catnip sa huli, si poging Gale ba o si machong Peeta Mellark na may abs.

(Source: yourpinkgoddess)

Nakakita ka na ba ng ganitong sitwasyon sa facebook?

Profile Picture ni Girl 1

9 Likes

Girl1:Thank you po *insert name here* !:*

Girl1: Hey, *insert name here* thanks:D

Girl1:Thanks sa like *insert name here*

etc etc etc

Akala mo ba masyado lang talaga siyang grateful kaya siya nag-teTHANKYOU? Akala mo lang! 

YUNG IBA kase, damoves lang nila yan. Me hidden agenda palang tinataglay. Oha. Wala namang masama sa pagte-thankyou, kaso yung iba abusado e. 

KELANGAN ISA-ISAHIN BAWAT MAGLA-LIKE?! pwede namang mag-thankyou nlng sa lahat.

Aminin mo na, kaya mo lang yan ginagawa para maparami comments, at may chance na ang picture mo mapunta sa news feeds ng mga friends mo! YEHEY, success ang bruha. more chances of likes pa ang dararating!

Kaloka. Buti pa yung mga humble at nanahimik nlng kahit 254 na ang likes, wiis spluk parin. I know, medyo may kababawan tong pinagsasabi ko pero kase AKO NA NAHIHIYA PARA SA MUKA MONG IKAW LANG ANG NAGCOCOMMENT! desperada much? Haha.

Agree ba kayo? o sadyang bitter lang ako?

(Source: yourpinkgoddess)